So, 2018 was a roller coaster. So many ups, downs, twists, and turns… But I survived.
I ended 2018 on an extremely high note.
While I did not finish my first Half Ironman attempt at Indian Wells La Quinta, it was such a humble learning experience. I honestly had a lot of fun, despite the many emotions I was feeling the whole weekend up until they cut me off at mile 6.2 on the run.
Yup. I got through 64.1 combined miles before getting pulled. But you know what, I was not a failure. I probably wouldn’t have admitted that as they took my timing chip, but I have come around. 😀 To be honest, I consider the whole weekend a success. (Though that success would have been just be a tad bit sweeter had I actually finished. Hah.)
I trained all alone for my Half Ironman. The biggest pro was that I was able to train on my own time, and when it fit into my schedule. The biggest con was that I had nobody to really push me outside of my comfort zone. I was not mentally strong enough to do that on my own.
Race weekend itself was a lot of fun. My daddy raced with me, and mom was there for support. I really couldn’t have asked for a better first Half Ironman event weekend.
I felt at home racing. The adrenaline, the crowds cheering, the tears flowing. For a split second, my life felt normal. For the first time in two years, I was in a happy place.
Redemption is heavily on my mind. I can’t seem to focus on anything but going back to Indian Wells. This is pretty much an end-of-season race- being held in December.
I am struggling to really live “in the moment” right now because I want redemption that badly. I am trying though. I really am.
I’m taking the first three months of 2019 to get whatever non-training shenanigans out of my system. This may, or may not, include drinking bottles of wine, going to the casino, or staying out late at a bar.
Hence the the timing and title of this blog. It’s currently 2:33am Mountain Time, and I’ve made it through half a bottle of white sangria.
It’s been a minute since I’ve written and for some reason, it just felt right to type a little somethin’, somethin’ up for you guys.
I think I’m going to go sleep now….